Kaijudragon567NEW

I feel like I should vent here since its always been an inactive quiet place. I've spent I want to say 5-6 years trying to improve my art and to get better. Sure improvement is visible on my page, but its not what I want. Truthfully, I'm envious and downright jealous of what other people do. Things that look so painfully easy to them are struggles for me. I blame my lack of actual practice, "so just practice more", the issue is I don't even want that anymore. I hate everything I draw, its all so flat, its emotionless, proportions are always out of fucking wack and I can't take it. I've gotten a lot of gift art, a few commissions, and despite me loving people for taking time out of their day to do something for me...It honestly has left me hating my own style, my own work, my own...you know. Seeing my characters and ideas drawn and realized in such better ways leaves me just, self loathing and disgusted with my own skill. I've tried learning from others, but I feel I always fall back